Thursday, September 10, 2009
What's up with my memory? I am really forgetting things way too much. Oh.. and make tha "Ms. Forgetful" , please...
I used to believe that being "forgetful" about certain things was another way of saying you're just not that interested.. it's not that important..
But lately, I seem to be forgetting even the things that I do think are important...Hmm..
Short-term memory is gone and unless I put things (keys, purse, jewelry watches) in the same designated places, and immediately, I can't remember where I did put them.
And for someone who has thrived in dis-organization my whole life (so far), it's really a bummer.
(now there's a word you don't hear too much anymore..bummer..what's the "now" equivilent of bummer..? )
You'd think this change in brain-power might be a good thing for one as disorganized as me...and well..it probably is, so I can be more...you know ..organized.
I think. Maybe. I dunno. Not so much..Huh...
It's like I don't want to do anything because that might mess up the organization I need to get through my day..
Trying to be systematically organized while being a lazy-butt is not a good thing.
Oh, and I tried the "lists" things..lost the list.
Note to self? Can't find a pen.
I've been calling myself (although I never answer) and leaving cryptic messages ("red thingy tomorrow" or "make the call" ...wha???)
Or I forget to check my messages..so a week later when I do check..."Oh yeah! Now I remember, I was supposed to call the doctor and set up an appointment! Oh crap..I forgot to make the call.."
I have to learn to communicate with myself better..but I'm not a good listener..and I can go on and on and on about something..I get bored hearing about me....I'm such a nag..
I know these things can be related to old(er) age. And that really doesn't scare me too much..but what worries me is my brain can only hold so much..so I "release" information I don't think I'll need at the moment...possibly?
But then when I do need it...I can't find it.
And I'm easily distracted.
Important work meeting yesterday..big boss talking..and suddenly I noticed that the lines on his dress shirt all matched u perfectly..the sew on on pocket, the thingy down the front that holds the buttons..and lined up ..perfectly.
And I was wondering how some little lady in some factory somewhere had to have really worked to line that all up and she really did a great job..and all of a sudden I felt so sad for her because probably no one has ever told her all the stuff she does lines up perfectly..and she goes home tired every day and thinks she did something that no one really cares about..
..but the shirt looked so good..and I noticed..so a cyber high five to some little old lady somewhere in a Van Huesen sweat shop..
..probably with no good benefits package or vacation time off and can't miss work because her husband is waaay old and he sits and smokes a pipe all day while feeding the birds and holding a pig....and she has to come home and clean up the birdie poop..and feed the pig..
Well, now I just feel bad. Oh well..wait a minute..something will pop into my head and I'll feel better..
have a memorable day..