Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I apologize..

I've been gone a while..no notice..no reason..no word.  And not even a note to those who've expressed concern..and that's just plain bad form.  I apologize.

Seems I've been caught up in:

1. Clinical depression.  Yep, my family is prone to this..but this is the longest I can remember having the "blue uglies"..I've really not been the same since my brother's death..never thought it would happen, I guess.  All that Irish humor and heart..

2.  Mr. B and I purchased a 1958 vintage Santa Fe travel trailer that we {he} is restoring..oh, I'll make pretties, but he's doing all the gutting and remodeling..yay us!

3.  I, at the age of 62.5, will be job hunting as we are being laid off in 53 days..awesome..as in crappy..

4. Have had vein surgery in both legs so hopefully, no more pain..yay me! {if you are thinking about doing this and they tell you it's not worse than getting a tooth pulled..tell them they need another dentist.  I have a high threshold of pain and it was not nice..but it will be :-)

5. Have missed a month of Zumba {see #4} so that could be in part the reason for #1..

6.  Have pretty much lost interest in my crafting, blogging, TV watching and visiting..but still love Pinterest.  {all those "pins" I will never do..but,  if I do..then I'll know where I put them..}

7.  Have had cravings for drinks and desserts...but I don't drink. soooooo...

8.  Sushi died.  I said a little prayer for his next journey and..flushed.

9. I've missed you all terribly and am ashamed at myself for not getting back with you . 

I apologize.

ps...I will be documenting the trailer re-do soon..and she has a name...Gracie..after our first hummers..

30 comments:

Vee said...

The losses of life, and you've had a few, certainly take their toll. Now you are the second blogger who has apologized today for not being around. I am feeling a little guilty. No, a lot guilty. Slap me if it'll help you feel better.

Now I'm wondering about your leg surgeries and if there was a shortage of that same medicine (sedative) that John missed out on for his second cataract surgery. It really ticks me off that people are being made to suffer for a shortage of meds.

Your camper sounds like so much fun. Can't wait to see it. When are you two going on the road?

I'll be praying for you to find a new job that you love. Any company would be blessed to have you for an employee!

eef said...

hope you are feeling better! it's nice to see you posting again!

just call me jo said...

Oh, I'm so sorry that things aren't so rosy. (Not at all...) I hate the blue uglies. They reside here often too and I have no real reason. I swear it's hereditary... I feel bad for Sushi's passing. I think fish (and all animals) have souls. I hope Sushi swims eternally around your heart. Job thing--ugh! vein thing--ugh! Pinterest--yeah! Why does it make us so happy? Love to you.

Emmy said...

*Hugs* Welcome back, Mrs. B. You've truly been missed.

Judy said...

Just read your blog for the first time...I so appreciate the honesty but am sorry for your "stuff" of late. Unfortunately,life just gets in the way sometime. I'm new to blogging (have only blogged maybe 3 or 4 times) any how, I always think I have a lot to say but then when I sit to write it just seems so insignificant...but I do love it and all things vintage! I can somewhat relate to what you're going through (except for the Sushi part. It's all just a glitch in this thing we call life and tomorrow has to be better! Y'all have a good day! Judy

ain't for city gals said...

Oh Girl...sometimes everything just gets too hard especially with your brother's passing. The only thing that gets me through sometimes on the loss of my dad is knowing that he absolutely positively would not want me moping around and crying. In fact the other day I had a distinct message from him....my mom and I were going to go play Bingo on the spur of the moment thing...I could hear him in my heart saying Yippee Hooray!! I'm sure your brother would be telling you the same thing...Of course,,,can't wait to see the trailer re-do...On the job...a nice little company in Wickenburg just closed its doors whithout any notice...lots of people suddenly unemployed...I fear a sign of the times to come...take care...xoxo

Ruth P. said...

Aww, I'm sorry you had a hard time. I also cross my fingers that finding that new job will not be too difficult!
And what fun to look forward to travel with an 'antique' camper! Just think of all the friends you'll make on the road....
Hugs

Sue said...

Colleen, you certainly have had a lot on your plate, it is no wonder you haven't felt (or had the time) to blog! Depression just on its own is brutal, and top that off with everything else you have experienced in the last little while, I'm surprised that you have even posted today!

Thinking positive thoughts re the job situation, which must be adding a lot to your stress. Be kind to yourself and we will be here whenever you feel up to stopping by and saying "hi"

Hugs

The Feathered Nest said...

Don't you worry your little head about us sweet girl...life can drag you down sometimes and we'll all be here when you're feeling more up to par. I'm so sorry about the painful surgery and the job thing ~ seems I hear this alot these days. Just know we love you and always, always welcome you back with open arms...can't wait to see a Gracie update too!! hugs and love, Dawn

Karen said...

When a door is closed, a window opens. You never know if losing your job will lead to a better one. Good luck and God bless.

Ming said...

No apologies needed... just happy to hear you're doing better. Tomorrow is another day. ((hugs)) and Happy Spring, I hope you can climb outta your funk!

A Wild Thing said...

There seems to be a lot of this going around...I'm not bored with blogging, just bored with the same o same o...but pinterest, now that's a different story, like having a great magazine that never ends.

Sorry about your job and Sushi, that sucks,but the whole country is a mess, giving rise to lots of depression, we just gotta keep our sense of humor...and a trailer, you lucky dogs, can't wait to see the progress!!!

Hugs sista!

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nana_ang_poppaphil said...

That;s not good, I hope you start to feel a bit better with the finer weather on the way..

One day at a time, sorry to hear about Sushi..

Look forward to seeing your progress with the trailer, we call them caravans here in New Zealand.

RoeH said...

You have to know no apology is necessary. I kind of wondered if that was what was happening to you. And only because I have 'been there done that' and I truly know how depression can take the life out of you. Winston Churchill described it as 'the black dog' and that kind of sums it up. If I even go off of the meds one or two days I can feel the difference and start traveling to the big hold. So glad you are back up and around. You're one of my favorites. :)

Pen Pen said...

(((hugs))) my friend... i think i might be right there with you on the depression part. We will make it....as this, too, shall pass. Glad to hear from you! Can't wait to see your new trailer... what fun!

Garden of Egan said...

I hope you get feeling better and better each day.
You have had so much going on.

No need to apologize, but I have missed you.

Sorry about the job thing. It is a terrible thing to have to be worrying about all in itself.

Hugs and prayers my friend.

Pearl said...

Hi Colleen glad to hear from you, but I understand the depression thing. You have had a lot of changes going on. I'm sorry to hear about your work at this age it must be very scary. But with your award winning personality I know you will find another job easy! I know big brother was your rock so I can only imagine the pain. Someday maybe you can write a book about him, I know that can be a healing thing, and he was such an interesting guy. Well my beta "Love" and I are so sad to hear about Sushi, I went out and bought an aquariaum like yours and it had that special bottle to coat them to keep them from disease, but love started to die. I knew I should never have coated him with that stuff because I already had tried it and it almost killed him then. I put him back into his regular bowl and after a week he is fine now. I don't care what the books say my betas have always liked room temp, which means the water gets pretty cold. No lights on him and he's fine. I think he is something like 7 years old now. Now the new tank can go to my grandaughters house for her goldfish. Anyhoo you hang in there kid and I just knew from your Pinterest boards that you might be up to restoring an old trailer one day. You will have lots of fun with that, and I know you will make it fantastic! Love,Pearl

Charmingdesigns said...

Yippee! I'm so glad you let us know whats going on, I've been worried about your absence. Move to the sunshine to avoid depression. Hope you get good as new soon. I'm so excited you have this trailer to work on...you KNOW we are going to anxious to see! Take care my friend, and welcome back

Lindsay said...

Colleen my dear :) I had no idea about sushi, the depression or half of the other stuff you named and I am so sorry. I swear that is how life is though sometimes. You really don't know what people are going through and sometimes it is just so darn much. I hope life eases up on you soon, and let me know if I can do anything for you. I sure am lucky to have you as a friend :)

Debby@Just Breathe said...

So happy to see a post from you. So sorry about your depression. I have been there several times and I know that losing your brother was hard for you. ((HUGS))
I am so excited to see your vintage Santa Fe trailer. Congratulations!
So sorry about the lay off :( Praying you will find something quickly.
Hope your legs feel better soon.
Sorry about Sushi :(
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I also know that you know all things are possible through God.

susan said...

No need to apologize Colleen or feel even slightly guilty! Sometimes blogging just needs to get in the back seat and wait its turn. Sorry about Sushi and your job. I actually have been thinking about (haha) going to Zumba because of YOU. Hasn't happened yet but it may still. Can't wait to see the trailer redo.

madrekarin said...

No apologies necessary, darling Colleen. You're allowed to take a break, take stock, regroup, heal, without any explanation at all. A big HUG to you for all you have been through. I love you.

Joyce said...

Sending you good thoughts and will keep you in my prayers special lady!

Pam said...

Sweet Colleen. I wish you would not apologize. We all have stuff and your pile is kind of high right now. The people that follow you understand. I hope you know how much you are loved. I wish you would come back and work with me. :)

Sharon said...

So glad your back, I have missed you and your wonderful way you look at life. Take care of you and all good things will follow.

Donna said...

My love to you cyber friend....no worries, it isn't ever about what we think it is about. It is totally about getting closer to your higher power...whatever that might be. Great good luck...love to you...

RoeH said...

I'm worried about you. Are you alright?

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